Hanging out with my old high school friends is one of the situations where I'm not very good at reflecting Jesus. My high school faith was relatively shallow, and I never figured out a good way to speak confidently but relevantly about what I believed and how that affected my life. As I grew in college, my maturity didn't quite translate into my conversation. Now we're six years after high school, and even though I'm almost in full-time ministry, it's like the conversation of faith and beliefs sits on a shelf, occasionally dribbling a way in but never turning into something real.
And in a group where spirituality is not really anyone's interest, how am I reflecting Jesus? Do they see my faith, religion as something that really matters? Am I really different than any one of them? I'm a bit disappointed in myself as my petty competitiveness come out and I let the usual gossip slip. I've never really figured out how to turn the conversation away from old classmate gossip nor articulate why I even want to do so.
When I think about reflecting Jesus, I think about a radiating love and kindness. I think about a character that is set apart. A person who breaks norms and loves across boundaries. I know I've experienced this love, but what can I do to make sure others experience it too? Jesus, transform my heart even more and let others see you...
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