sad song playlist

Because life sucks, sometimes. Because after those hours and hours of conversations, of working out assumptions and seeing things from each other's perspectives, of being more of a friend who can listen to the choice between San Jose and Sacramento, of assuming Darrell would have that choice for where he goes next year...he doesn't.

Exercising words again. Piece of crap that 12 out of 16 spots in Sac are already reserved. That eight others in the 85 slots before him already want those last four. Why this year? Two years ago, my friend Liz ended up in Sacramento because the site she wanted was taken.

Recognizing that those long, late-nights on the phone (that will probably continue) were good for us, and we worked out a lot of things that didn't get talked about last year. But still. Hard to feel like it wasn't for naught since it now looks like there's so little choice.

So erase the hopes for life in the same city again, for Saturday afternoons spent working or weekday dinners, for overlapping friendships and meeting new people together. And hello to another long, long year of long distance.