13. On repairs

All right. It's day thirteen of 30 (or 31? I haven't decided), which means I'm almosttt halfway through this month-long project. And now I have hit a block when it's late at night and I don't feel like writing. Which was supposed to come soon enough.

Not that there isn't anything to write about. There are half-posts that have formed in my head from the events of the past 24 hours: things I love about the rain, memories triggered by The Fray's "To Save a Life" on the radio, attending church as a newcomer/stranger, and the surprising amount of joy at our leaders team Christmas celebration, despite the unexplained absence of two of our students.

Or I could write about my theories of symptoms vs. being sick (and how dating a pharmacy student has changed that) or how I'm going to take my baby the Rebel into Mike's Camera Shop to see if they can do anything about getting the external flash to work. I'm a little terrified they will learn what a real noob I am with it, and how they'll expose (no pun intended) how I've been taking poor care of it to begin with. Maybe I should give it a good cleaning to begin with. Come to think of it, reminds me of how I would try to be less-sick at the doctor's even though that was the very point I was there, or pretend like my tooth hurt less at the dentist so I wouldn't get called on the fact that I wasn't taking care of it. On a far deeper note, I guess it's like how we try to clean ourselves up and get ourselves straight before approaching Jesus, completely forgetting the fact that (1) it doesn't fool him, and (2) we are going to him so he can deal with our junk.

So in reality if the people at the camera shop lecture me about what a novice I am and how I've messed up my little baby..........well, it reveals only the fact that I am not pro anyway, so why am I so afraid of the truth?? And don't I want to take care of my camera better?

I guess we got something real out of my non-post anyway. From my camera, no less!

Related: pleasepleaseplease don't cost me too much money.